“The Lord will perfect that which concerns me; Your mercy and loving-kindness, O Lord, endure forever–forsake not the works of Your own hands. [Ps. 57:2; Phil. 1:6.]”
Psalm 138:8 AMPC
About five months ago we discovered, with much surprise, that we were expecting our third child. Now, you need to know something about me before we go any further - I am quite the control freak. While I enjoy being spontaneous I also am sure to plan things out, over pack for car rides, and I even use old school planners because I have this real intense need to see things planned out. So, when baby 3 surprised us, after baby 1 and baby 2 were planned, my mind went into a tailspin.
“How will we pay for daycare?”
“How will I even take care of three Children when I only have two hands?”
“Now I’m going to have two kids in diapers?!”
“How do I even pump enough milk for the baby while giving the other kids enough attention?”
And then the doozy...
“but lord! We only have a three bedroom house! Where will I take the baby to calm it down at night when everyone else is trying to sleep?”
(Yes. Okay. Yes I know that every child doesn’t need their own room. I’m one of four daughters and we shared rooms my entire life. But the point is.. my heart was worried ... so humor me and keep reading..)
So. I did what all good Christians are supposed to do. I whined to God.
Okay fine — let’s not call it whining... I expressed my concerns. And my persistent shock for this addition to the family. And like the Lord always does, He answered me softly and assured me that even though this baby took me by surprise, it hadn’t taken Him by surprise. He had it planned all along. So, I took this reassurance to heart and reminded myself that if God had this planned, I could trust him with the details. (Silly now In retrospect that I would even consider that God hadn’t thought about the details.. )
I began hilighting scriptures and writing new post it’s to remind myself what Gods word says about His provision, His plan and His faithfulness. Then I went to Pinterest. I looked for ways to incorporate the nursery into our master bedroom and I made a checklist, that I of course shared with my sweet husband (whose been laughing about the irony of this since the beginning) and I got to planning!
We entertained the idea of moving to capture another bedroom but were quickly reminded that finding a four bedroom house with a basement in our area was about $100k over what we were comfortable spending. So, I messaged my sweet friend, prayer partner and also realtor and told her to take us off her radar. We were going to make do where we were, and we were going to make the best of it! Plus, it would be a fun story to tell the baby as it grew older , right?
Well apparently God is a better story teller than I am, because this is where you should get ready for your praise break.
I received a call from my Realtor friend on a Sunny afternoon while I was shopping for baby goodies. She seemed apologetic from the get go. Apologizing for calling me about a house when I had just told her we couldnt afford what we wanted. She told me she had to follow the leading of the Lord. She wanted me to pray about a house she was prepping to list. The house was in our budget, in the location we wanted, with one extra bedroom than we’d requested all while being on the acreage we wanted. It felt too good to be true over the phone so I tried not to get excited. I messaged the details to my hubby and looked it up on Zillow when I got into the car, hoping maybe pictures from a past listing would be online for my browsing pleasure. I found it. With each swipe I got increasingly excited. So, we arranged to see it the next day.
As we walked through the home I could picture it. Our family giggling In the kitchen, Addyson in her upstairs loft bedroom, the boys playing in their rooms, sleepovers in the basement and my dreaming continued with hopes of digging a pool in the future across the spread of land.
One thing led to another and we placed an offer - before even listing our home! I know it sounds crazy, but the hand of God was evident all over this. And I’ve learned that my plans always pale in comparison to His, so I might as well learn to let Him take the lead.
So- I said all of that to say this ... if it’s a concern of your heart, it’s on His mind. And He’s perfecting it. Even when you’ve given up. Even when you’ve “settled” for less. He’s working behind the scenes for His kids. Why? Because He’s a good good father. wait—I know what you’re thinking, you are wondering if this is the case then why is nothing going your way? Well is it time to step back and evaluate some things? When is the last time you truly gave God control of the steering wheel without ripping it back out of His hands when he did something you didn’t quite approve of? When’s the last time you totally trusted Him, you know like totally? We are human- ￼at times it’s only natural to question God and His plan.
But I think It’s time to move into the SUPERnatural.
The new natural.
The natural that allows you to trust God with every crazy twist and turn that your life takes. Now let me just say, that if you’re not surrendered to Christ it’s totally a real possibility that the enemy is having a hay day with your life, at the expense of your peace. BUT I have good news. You don’t have to stay on that dreadful road. You can acknowledge Jesus as your savior, who came to this world as God manifested in the flesh to die for your sins so you can have a relationship with Him on Earth and live with Him in eternity. The alternative isn’t good, friends. There’s no middle ground. And I could spend all day telling you what a Good God I serve.. if you need a good convincing let me take you to coffee, we will pray together and I assure you God will knock your socks off.
The simple fact that I didn’t NEED another house. I didn’t NEED another bedroom and I didn’t even NEED that copper sink, but I sure did want it.. and God showed up and showed out! He provided us a beautiful home to make our own and gave me more than I could even ask for. Legit y’all everything I had said out loud that I loved .. he did. A capecod, a long blacktop driveway, close enough to town but far enough for land and livestock one day. A mud room with shelving. A master bathroom with a tub and walk-in tiled shower. A finished basement. Rooms for the kids and a guest room. Surrounded by farm land. Y’all, do you see the goodness of my God? That He would care for me that much that He’d line everything up just when I had given up.
What is it that you’ve given up on? What area of your life have you been trying to control? What are you worried about? I dare you to give it to God, and leave it in His hands. I dare you to step back, back off and trust him. Watch him give you more than you’ve ever dreamed of.
I’m living proof.